6 more hours and i'll be heading to bangkok...

mixed feelings...

Back from Genting...well,i would say it's an okay trip onli...abit of conflicts here and there btw me and my mum. other than that everything's fine....

Now looking forward my bkk trip...met gerald today for lunch and planned our itinery for the trip. First trip with him....I'm sure it would be fun!

In a few hours time, i will be on the coach heading to Genting...a short getaway with my family and cousin's family...

Past few days,i've been meeting up with friends. Friends that i had perhaps "lost" along the way. and i am glad that you all still love me for who i am... Thank you! In fact, i was given "treats" la...all dun wan me to pay...feeling guilty .... from Zi cha to Jade Crystal to Roti prata to Ichiban to Gelare to Mos burger. The food is great but the accompany is wonderful...

sometimes when u try hard,it just comes back...so i tried harder,and i realised- it didn't leave me at all.i wonder how long more...how long more to just not think about you. *feel like crying...

everything seemed crazy.......

my cousin's family gg Bangkok in a few hours' time...wanted to go with them but due to the stupid training which i need to attend,i couldn't go. And you know what? i need not attend the whole 4 full days! urgh...

leaving on monday for a short trip wif family to Genting...then leaving to bkk on sunday!

doing it out of impulsive ? i dunno....

it's been 11 years...and is going strong...

i dun understand either....

Changing my blogskin...still searching for something i like....

was driving halfway today...and the feeling came again...


" can somebody tell me how to turn back to the time it used to be...oh god give me a reason...i'm down on bended knees...."

it seemed to some tat i "neglected" my blog...but then,it's not tat i am not blogging...jus tat i am lost for words...lotsa thoughts in my mind yet some things ain't to be mentioned. some feelings hard to describe. some thoughts just for myself....

well, some updates...went to watch SEASONS wif jianjia on 23 april.First time to a musical play.And i love it!
Some moments isn't made to last...

And as intuition told me,it happened. grandpa passed away on 24th april. my mum & I were just 3 minutes late...well at least as mentioned on my previous post,he didn't suffer much pain before he departed. Thanks to all the friends who came to the wake and contributed.

It's come to May once again. I hate Mays. it's always a sad month for me...the kind of pain which no one could understand.

I am redirecting my life..yes once again....I wanna be successful. I wanna do meaningful stuffs. I wanna travel around. Definition of success differs from one another. For me, it's no longer monetary primarily. But what i can do for others. I've fallen down times and again...so it's ok. What's more important is to stand up once again and walk through the journey to my dreams...it's a lonely journey but it's ok. It's alright.


Today's lesson : No point deceiving to ownself. Be honest to my feelings and follow my heart...